Saturday, January 18, 2014

Breathe. Just breathe.

Try as I might, I was having a lot of trouble turning everything over to God in recent days.  My gallbladder surgery is scheduled for Jan. 22, and I went into almost panic mode. 

Several people took a statement I made,  completely wrong.  I mentioned that several things were concerning me, including who would cook for my son.  OF COURSE my son can cook, but it's a little like if you are employed, you plan on being able to do your job.  Since I'm retired, keeping a home is my job. 

Most of my angst was caused by feeling keenly the loss of my caregiver, LeRoy.  When I was doing chemo, and when I had a back fusion, he took care of me.  I do have so many friends and family offering help, I will be fine.  It just didn't feel like it for a few days.

A lot depends on whether the procedure will be done with the laparoscope or the huge incision.  I am packing as if I will be in the hospital for a week or 10 days, and then when I get to come home in 2 days, I will be happily surprised!

I don't know when I can blog again, but don't give up on me.

I did run across a wonderful quote from Gordon R. Hinckley, on my daily horse calendar: "Stop seeking out the storms and enjoy more fully the sunlight."

Isn't that awesome?  As you keep looking up, that sunlight will be there even if a layer of clouds obscures it.

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